I just can't get myself in bed. I've got bad anxiety. My Dr. started me on lexapro today. A lot of help that's gonna do me now, as it's not supposta start working for maybe a few weeks. In the meantime it might just increase my anxiety??? And I'm going through hell right now with my b/f's drug problem because I just realized today after some shady business on his part that he seems to be addicted to an even worse drug than the original opiates. And I'm freaking out because I am pretty sure he's out there right now doing it, and I keep calling him and leaving him messages... He was supposta call me tonight because I had to go through a real stressful situation and he wanted to hear how it went. But no, he's not there. Once again. I don't know why I wrote all that. Any responses I'll get will be leave him, don't try to save him... so on... I know all that. But right now I'm asking how the heck do you make yourself try to sleep when you just can't even conceive the idea of sleep? I'm wide awake, it's almost 3am and I have to be up in 4.5 hours, and I've not slept much at all this week. I just can't stop thinking about his deception. I'm too upset. And I'm trying to figure out if I should confront him on it when I see him next... that's all I can think about. Not sleep. How do you shut your mind away from this kind of crap?
Posts You May Be Interested In
theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...