I am having extreme anxiety tonight as my older kids only have 3 more days at home before they go back to college. I don't want them to go. I want to keep them home forever. I know I am being very selfish and a lot dumb. I feel like someone has died. Why can't I just live my life and not be so crazy? The closer the day gets for them to leave the worse my anxiety gets. I am freakin out here. How do I survive this? What am I going to do in 4 years when my youngest leaves? Alot of my problem I know is that my whole life has revolved around my kids and not my husband. When my kids aren't here I don't know what to do with myself. I use to love to have days alone whenmy kids were little. It seemed I never got those. I guess I needed to cherish those days a little more. Now I hate that I am alone most of the time. My youngest is at hockey every night and my husband with him as he is a coach. I just can't handle all of this. I don't think I am strong enough. I don't like feeling this way. I hate it. I just don't know how to change it. I don't even have the energy to try.
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