I already mentioned this topic in my last post, but I want to continue it. I'm a healthy 16-year-old with no medical or mental issues at all, but yet I'm just constantly searching for answers on whether or not there will be life after death or if one day death just randomly comes to me during my sleep. It's because I love life even when I have my own struggles that I still need to overcome. I think the journey and the fascination of human existence on an earth in a universe nowhere are so compelling. Couldn't have just been random. For the past months I've been struggling to sleep properly because I'd stay up pretty late then automatically wake up early without an alarm clock. It's because I'm afraid of sleep. I'm not sure if it's true, but isn't sleep like death but just half unconsciousness? I literally don't feel anything in my sleep and when I wake up it takes awhile to remember who I am, where I am, and what day it is.
If any of you are religious too please share your thoughts on that. Death and sleep are different, but is the difference that for death, we will wake up to a new life in eternity, whereas sleep is waking up to a new day on earth? I'm just so afraid if I get bombed or shot randomly when walking around, so dying at an early age. And I can't buy into any of the facts I learn in biology class. It's interesting but makes me doubt spirituality.
my head feels really strange today. I cant figure out if its a pyhiscal feeling or emotional. Crrtainly feels weird and fuzzy. Im super tired maybe thats just it i dunno. Really struggling to feel ok today. Just about to have a meal out with a friend and cinema. Hopely cheer me up.
I just had a conversation via private message about what to do about panic attacks that made me think yet again about what's gotten me through them thus far. The frequency and power of mine seem to fluctuate. Lately, they've been coming on more often again and coming on harder. In my own experience with them, that will pass, but in the moment memory doesn't serve me that well. That's the...