I have been in my mom's house for more than a month. I am terrified at the very idea of leaving. I get shaky and I start to fall apart an break out in tears. Sometimes I want to die. I just can't do this anymore. I am separated from my husband following an incident that he did not understand. I was totally having an anxiety attack and he wanted to call the police on me. I was so humiliated and embarassed. but he still can't understand why. He says he loves me, but doesn't understand why this hurt me. He insists that what he did was for my own good. We have not spoken to each other in over 3 weeeks. I break out into hysterical fits of crying. My doctor prescribed Xanax for me yesterday, because I was literally coming apart. My mom has to keep them and hand them out to me, because I tried to overdose on them once. If anyone has any suggestions, advice or life experience that can help, I would appreciate it. I am truly falling apart.
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