Many of the females in this group have discussed how their fathers were absent in some way in their lives, and how this effected them. I'm more depressed than ever, and i'm crying as I write this. I'm 51 and male father. My father was alchoholic, and lets just say he did not teach me how to treat a women properly. I believe this is part of reason I have abused drugs in past, and lost first wife. I remarried to wonderful women 20 years ago, and now have two beautiful daughters. But I suffer from anxiety/depression, chronic pain, fibromyalgia, and chronic fear/phobia of people. I know I'm causing harm to my daughters, and my wife. We do talk about this some, but it is so hard for my daughters to understand. So ironic what I grew up with continues on even though I vowed at a very early age to change this family curse. Why Why Why Why does life have to be so cruel, and repeat itself in so many families. My daughters and I have a good relationship, and even though I am in terrible pain most of the time I have often forced myself to attend school events, and until recently help with homework whenever possible. I pray I have not damaged their lives, and moreover they have not inherited to many of my genes. Any advice appreciated!
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