Sorry if this topic seems long but I figure I'd explain every detail to get some feedback on what's going on with me. I've been in three relationsips in my entire life. Each have ended horribly because I was in constant worry. It was not until my third relationship ended the first time that I sought help. I went to the doctor who gave me effexor and when I took it I hated it and decided to stop and work on it myself. The first time my third relationship ended it was my fault. Me and my girlfriend got into a fight caused by my worrying and then I had a Panic Attack while driving and it really scared her because she didn't know what was going on with me. She left me. A year went by and I thought I was OK. I was feeling so much better in my life. We got back together and it went well but then the anxiety and worry started up again. Not as bad as last time. But on New Years I got worried that I just wasn't good enough for her and we got into a huge argument and she got scared and left me again. I loved her so much. But I feel as though she left me when I needed her most and it might not be worth it. I feel like I've been very depressed. I am unhappy at work. I can;t sleep, and I have such a loss of appetite. This was before and after we had broken up. I am always on edge and feel as though I probably have a slight case of OCD. I expected certain behaviours from her and when it didn't happen it made me worry. Even if a text message I got seemed to be in a different manner than other ones I would get worried. I am going to see a doctor soon. I just want to feel better and be able to have a great relationship. Does anyone else seem to be having the same problems?
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