Hard t reply to that since you don't want us to say it'll be ok (even tho it will).
What is it you want to talk about?

maybe you should try medication.

i know exactly what your going throgh. I recently started finding and getting back into my religion. I read the bible every night and i read some things that helped me whenever i got into your way of thinking.
The Lord gives us only stuff yu can handle, my anxiety seems hard for me but i know that i can overcome it if i try with the help of God. It is almost like a test i just to keep faithful and trusting and soon i will get out of it....
Here is something else that helps me that i read in a book.. It took years of negative thinking for me to get as bad as i did with the anxiety its not going to go away quickly. Just everyday tell your self your fina, your strong and you will get better. Overcome the negative thinking with positive soon you will be believing it and getting better.

Thanks for sharing this with us. I don't know if this will help, but you're not alone. This has happened to me so many times. It will stop, it will.