How do I explain to my psychiatrist how I have been feeling. In the past we have mostly focussed on my depression. I still consider that an issue but it has definately taken a backseat to the anxiety. I am anxious about everything. School is a major issue coming up that can't be avoided. I have frequent stomach issues and headaches. I get my self so worked up I want to crawl out of my skin. I lay in bed at night tossing and turning which then turns to thrashing and crying. I feel so out of my body and so frustrated. Nothing is going as planned. What if she decides on more meds?? I can't afford them!! I can't afford the ones I am on. I have taken the klonopin so much that now it takes up to 16mg for it to have any effect at all. I wasn't supposed to go past 3mg. (though I am a nursing student and my drug book says not to exceed 20mg in 24 hours so I know I am safe) Thats the other thing the fact that I know things like that drives her nuts!!! I don't know how to explain all of this to her. I called her a week or two ago and tried and she just told me to think positively. Honestly this is beyond just thinking positively. I am at the end of my rope. I can't take much more. . .
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