I am in such a bad way... I wish that I was never let out of the hospital. The meds that I am on are doing nothing for me, and I have been on so many different things... nothing works! I am so frusterated with this constant feeling of anxiety, dread, worthlessness, etc... I never get a break from it, it just goes on and on, and its been this way for more than 2yrs. More than ever I just wish that I would die in my sleep. I have thought of suicide, but would never go through with it, I am already living in Hell, I dont want to be there for all of eternity. None of my friends are ever online, and I just really need to chat with someone right now so I can get out of this extremely bad feeling I am having right now. I just dont want to live like this anymore.
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