I hope! I went to write an exam today for a distance ed course I am taking. My husband drove me and I was quite anxious even after taking 1mg of clonazepam. I even made him walk me up the stairs to where I was going to write the exam. The thing is that once I got in the room with my colleagues to actually write the test, I was not anxious anymore. It was not the test that I was anxious about - I was just anxious that I would have a panic attack. It's like I'm not this anxious crazy person with my colleagues like I am with my husband and some friends and my parents. It's like I am my work self- confident, friendly and ok. So I asked my boss if I could work half days for the next 2 days as it has been 3 and a half weeks since I have been a work due to my increased anxiety/panic attacks after changing meds. She said that was fine (I didn't tell her that I have an anxiety disorder, of course- just "personal problems.") So tommorrow I am supposed to go in for a 6 hour day. I hope sooooo much I will be able to do it! It's almost like I just need to get over that hump of actually doing it and then I'll be ok. I might get my husband to follow behind me when I drive there. But I'm still so scared that I will panic once I'm there and I won't be able to calm down. My biggest symptom is that my heart RACES. It goes so fast and I swear it may well go over 200bpm. Does anyone else have this as their primary problem? Anyways, I really hope I can do this. I miss work, I feel useless at home, I need some purpose back in my life. Send good thoughts my way tommorrow!:) Thanks.
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