Hi. I am new here. I don't know if it will be triggering for people to read about being abandoned, but that is what this post is about. During covid, my hours got cut to part time and since I live alone, my social support system virtually dried up. I ended one friendship b/c she was toxic, constantly ridiculing me. My sisters can't deal with my anxiety, and even though I have always full shown up for them in above and beyond ways both told me they could not "take it on" with me and went no contact. I have been terribly hurt by this, and my efforts to reach out are met with rejection. I did not do anything to them; they just don't care. Both are married where I live alone with a dog. Then my dog DIED unexpectedly and neither sister could be bothered to pick up the phone and call me. A few weeks later, the loneliness got too much and I adopted a new dog. It took me a few weeks but I was suddenly surprised by my joy in the new dog. My bff, who I have always fully shown up for, recently sent me a link to some facebook groups and told me to find one on schnauzers b/c she didn't want to hear about it. She did not say, I don't want to hear about your happiness. She said, you talk about your dog too much and I know you must be super frustrated that I don't care, so here's a better outlet. This is the friend who I walked with fully when her mother was dying, to the point of leaving work to sit with her while she sat with her dead mother in a room so she wouldn't ahve to be alone. I am aware that I give too much, but what is so shocking to me is that none of the people in my life, except my late husband's parents, have shown up for me at all, they have all abandoned me. They have never really had a high attendance at all, like if I needed a colonoscopy I would have to hire a sitter to get me there and back. I am in my forties! This just hurts me so much. When I called my "friend" out on her response to me, she wrote and said, but i do care, I just don't want to hear about Mac. I want to hear about you. We need space. I am super frustrated with you too. WITH WHAT? All we do is talk about her. So how is that frustrating? I realize that this is a toxic friendship, but I am so panicky and feeling alone right now. Literally no one cares, and it makes me so sad. Yes, I am in counseling, every week for a year, and going strong. B/c of covid, I don't know how to find new friends. I am trapped in a toxic situation at work, and after two years of solid job hunting, have only gotten two job interviews and another invite to one I am not qualified for. I don't know anymore how to improve my life b/c I feel like I am doing everything I can. I am so sad and lonely right now.
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Does anyone have experience with restless leg issues? Of course my legs are jumpy and tingling off and on and that triggers my health anxiety, which then means I am super jittery and tingling all over. Maybe my vitamins and minerals are low I did have weight loss surgery 2 years ago and I don't take my vitamins like I should and I am anemic have been for years. Of course it does not help that I...