I'm freaking out because I just started a new job. I don't know how I am going to cope. I feel like quitting every day. It makes me feel like I have never done this job before. Everyone I am working with and around are very supportive. My heart races and I just feel like I am constantly going to be *found out* though I am not sure what they will find, except that somehow irrationally I think they find out I am some sort of a fraud. I am afraid everyday that they are going to tell me I am not going to work out and to go home. I'm replacing the person I am training with and he is so beloved. I feel so self-conscious. I just want to crawl into bed and not deal with it. It makes me scared of life.
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