I have had this life long fear of public speaking and it is truly an obstacle sometimes. Let alone an embarrasment. Anyone else deal with this? I mean, my heart pounds out of my chest, I get all clamy, my mouth gets bone dry, I can't get my sentences out in an organized, articulate manner. Ugh! It is so frustrating and debilitating sometimes. I have to avoid possible public speaking engagements whenever possible. I also have social anxiety. I am somewhat quiet and introverted. My wife is the opposite. I get jealous and envyous when we are out somewhere and she is able to laugh and smile and I count the minutes till we can leave and go home to my safe, secure, castle.
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