Hey guys. I'm just going to let some stuff out but I'd love it if anyone can relate to what I'm saying. I've been doing better for the most part. But I'm still sometimes terrified of losing my mind. Like I'm going to start seeing or hearing scary things. Usually when I think about this I become extremely sensitive to my senses. I'm afraid that even with a sane mind that my life will come to seem like a really bad nightmare that I can't get out of. Even though my life really isn't bad. I fear not being able to control my fear and other emotions. That I'll be the one who's 'different'. Who can't control his mind or emotions and it's all just a downward spiral into something bad. Like maybe my brain is different or becoming different. Like when I'm feeling better I was just deluding myself or ignoring the negative...Thanks guys.
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