well today i was woken up by my dad ringin my phone sayin my mother was severly depressed all weekend and she in a mania he had left for work so she wouldnt answer the phone and of course me not my bro or sis have to go check on her before i leave for work i do it and she ok jus outta of it well needless to say everythings ok but how am i suppose to feel between her and my sister with thier probs suicide attempts drug abuse im not ok things rnt alright im a wreck no wonder i have anxiety depression noone cares how maria is cause im always the strong one all this after i jus went thru the whole rehab thing with my sister y do i always have to be the strong one i tell them im bout to have a breakdown but noone cares ill get over it right imm so sick n tired of this shit y am i thier hero i need a hero i feel like i wanna breakdown but i kno i cant i have too much goin on cabt catch a break all day they dont call nuthin its like its over and forgotton when im sittin here tramatized think i was gonna find my mother dead and my sister has done that to me several times where i find her with her sucicide attempts i really cant take much more i feel like i dont kno wat to do wats best for maria sumtimes i jus want to move away from them that way i cant be relied on for these things i just dont kno wat to do and i keep havin these breakdowns is there any hope i fukin hate this shit
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