maybe its being overwhelmed, alot is happening, my husband and i are getting ready to move into our own place soon, since moving to another country.... last night i did something i used to do and thought i was done with, taking alot of pills, i just wanted to be somewhere different, peaceful. my husband and i havent been getting along to good lately and i feel like im spiraling out of control again. im scared and lost right now, i feel like a failure because i try to conqure all and be happy and postive, trying to have things under control, then i just start feeling really anxious, but the more i try to fight it, lately the worse it gets. plus my family hasnt been keeping in touch with me and i miss them so much, ive been begging to talk to them. even as im writing this im feeling how much it hurts. i know when i get like this theres something wrong. im always waiting and wait for them to send me a message or something, but there to busy, whenever they needed me i was there.. it just hurts. just so much is going on, more hours at work, which im scared to losing my job because of visa issues, so i take these hours, so many people wanting to go this place with me and hang out here. and i dont see my husband alot because of our work schedules and hes always been there for me. im so anxious to get our of this frump, but its like how can i be happy if i cant fix any of these things that are hurting, bothering me. i dont want to go back down that road i were on a few years ago. i dont know what to do, but it comforts me sharing with you guys
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