Lately I've been feeling very weird. I've been having anxiety problems for a while now but nothing quite like what I'm experiencing now. I don't know if it's related at all to my anxiety/depression issues but I'm just throwing ideas out there. Lately I've been feeling disconnected from myself, and my life, literally. Sometimes I'll be sitting down on my bed, and in my head, I'll see myself sitting in my bed. It's kind of like I'm watching myself do things, rather than doing them myself. It's like I'm watching myself through a camera or something. This has only been happening a few times a week, for about 2 weeks now. It kind of scares me a little is all. Also I refer to myself in the third person in my head. For example, if I say something to someone and later think about how stupid it was to say such a thing I'll say, "Why did SHE say that in that way". It usually happens when I'm mad or annoyed at myself, so I'm thinking that's some sort of coping method, distancing myself from my 'stupidity'? I don't know. My friend who has panic disorder and who has panic attacks frequently said that she often feels disconnected from herself, but not quite as extreme as what I just described. I don't really have a panic attack when the disconnection happens...and I don't think I'm in the midst of one at all. I don't think one could not notice if he/she was having a panic attack. I've had a few before and this is nothing like that. I feel completely calm and completely sane when the disconnection is happening, and I don't feel at all like I do when I have panic attacks. I've only had 4 in my life though, and haven't had one since January.. so I don't know what to make of this. Anyone have any ideas besides what I've thrown out there already?
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