Hello all. I've had an interesting past few days, and wanted to share just to see if anyone has been through anything like this. I have lived with Anxiety in one way or another for over a decade. I am a 33 year-old male and take 40mg of Paxil / day. You'd think I would have the hang of this anxiety thing down by now...but something is always catching me off-guard it seems. The latest is this: It began on Thursday night. I started having this "feeling" of Deja Vu several times throughout the evening. I didn't think anything about it much at the time...because we've all had Deja-Vu at some time in our lives. But then, all day Friday I felt the same way. Then Friday afternoon, and into the evening, It switched from the feeling of Deja-Vu to something else. Like dreams, or movies, or video games that I have played (I coudn't quite put my finger on what it was) - started to flash into my mind. Almost like my subconscious had a "glitch". Well, I start worrying about it (did you expect anything else) - and I began my Google search. I swear, Google is the bane of my existence. I have scared myself into a panic attack with internet stories more times than I would like to remember. Well, the first thing that popped-up was a forum post explaining that Deja-Vu can be the first signs of Schizophrenia. HERE WE GO! Every time I have anxiety, I think I am losing my mind, and that it will develop into Schizophrenia. I did a lot more searching, and found this NOT to be the case, but that's how I feel. Now, I just have a dull anxious feeling, and am dreading going back to work for fear of my own thoughts, or that the Deja-Vu feeling will come back, or flashes of dreams will come back. Has anyone out there experienced anything like this before? Should I be worried about this Scizophrenia thing? I did do LSD once in my childhood (when I was 18). Could that be coming back to haunt me - referring to the "flashback" thing. Also, has anyone else noticed that their anxiety comes in cycles. For example, I will be fine and dandy for months, and then BAM - I'll have a spell for a week or four - and then I''ll work through it and get better. One of these days, I'm afraid it will come and not go away. Any words of encouragement or similar experiences would be much appreciated. Thanks so much, Achilles.
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