A very prominent theme in my internal life right now is child abuse and the far reaching effects it has had on my thought patterns. My mother is mentally ill and was very abusive, hateful and paranoid, especially toward me. I left home when I was 15 and vowed to be stronger and better. I believe I am, but i can never seem to shake the negative self image i have of myself. For short times maybe, but not forever. I combat them always, but sometimes its very difficult, like when I'm having a rough spot in life, or going through serious transitions, like now. I'm wondering if anyone out there has any words of wisdom on this topic or even just can relate. They're so stubborn, these thoughts that go through my head sometimes, not good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, ... you get the idea. They can be a great source of stress for me at times, as far as I've come in my evolution as a human being.
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