Hello. Since last Thursday I've been feeling so much better. I think it was the combo of talking to my spiritual director and exercise. But today I had another string of intrusive thoughts that robbed me of my peace. I read in a book about how to talk to anyone a while ago that if you can get the person you're talking to to blink frequently, somehow it builds an attraction in them. One way to do that is to blink while talking to them and then they will mirror you. The frequent blinking will boost their affinity for you subconsciously. Anyways, now I'm conscious of the other person blinking or not while I'm talking to them."are they blinking?" "Does that mean they like me." "Should I blink to get them to blink?" "It's not right to manipulate people like this." Etc., etc. I know it's ridiculous but that's been my most recent hook. Just wanted to write it out and share.
So just because the day keeps getting worse, I just found a red nodule cyst like thing on my 4 year old dogs paw. My dogs are obviously my saving grace.So now I have to just not breathe until I can get him to the vet.Make it stop, what have I done, really. It is one thing after another
I'm waiting for test results and figure itll be tommorow or the next day before I hear anything. I have had a good week now and this morning I believe I am having relapse symptoms. Same symptoms I had when this began. This morning I'm at the salon getting my hair done. It was past the point of touching up. I try to have it professionally done every 3 or 3 months and in between touch up...