I havent had any anxiety for a week. But I woke up this morning with odd flutters where it feels im getting the wind knocked out me a little bit. I got one and I handled it, but then I got like 3 in a row and then felt my heart start to race. I didnt dare take my heart rate because I now know it sends me into further panic mode!!! I didn't want to resort to my xanax but I had to because I started to panic anyways. My legs got shakey, racing heart, fears of passing out or worse and I am here alone. I called a friend and got to talk a little but then he had to get back to work. xanax kicked in 15-20 min and heart rate is flucuating between 70-99 depending if im just laying or if I get up and walk around. I know this is a normal HR, but I keep thinking the worse because I am here by myself. I am developing a huge fear of being alone now. I want someone to come live with me because of this. I am tired and afraid to sleep because I am afraid I wont wake up. But the xanax this time is really hitting me hard and I dont really like feeling like Im not in control. How can I get through this right now? A part of me wants to just go hang out at the hospital or something, but I know that is dumb. should I just try to sleep? Please someone help me who has gone through all of this!!!!! TY
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