Almost a year ago, for the first time in my life I experience what it meant to suffer from anxiety and panic disorder. It was one of the most horrible situations I had to deal with in my life. Thankfully with lots of family support, a few trips to the emergency room and using various anxiety related programs and resources, I got better. My panic disorder lasted around 6 months then slowly I was able to live normally again, even if occasionally my sensitivity to different body sensations would kick in, it was nothing like before and for the majority of the time I was really good.
Yesterday however, out of nowhere, my heart starts to race and it takes me back to my worse nightmare. I can't find any valid explanation why my body would do this and I'm freaking out because I'm wondering if something is actually wrong. I was on edge for the rest of the day after that but nothing too intense. This morning around 4:30 AM I woke up suddenly from a deep sleep. I started feeling a strong pulsing sensation in my head. A few minutes later my heart starts racing so high that it sends me into a panic. I reach for medication that I haven't taken in almost a year.
Have any of you experience these symptoms even when to the best of your knowledge you were not feeling anxious?
I DO NOT under any circumstances what to go through panic disorder again. Especially so out of the blue. But I am worried and don't know what to do. The people who would support me the most live in a different country and I don't feel comfortable speaking to those I live with. Should I make a trip to the doctor? My immigration application is still in process and I don't have healthcare, so the emergency room is pretty much one of the only and quickest avenues for me right now and even if I haven't been charged once in the past, there's always a possibility since I don't have a health card.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.