anxiety in church
i definitely have anxiety when it comes to going to church. i have been going to church my whole life but still being in a big church is just too much for me. i can't be myself at all. i feel like crying but am too afraid and i don't know what i'm afraid of. i feel like everything being said applies to me and everyone knows even tho no one at the church knows me. everyone in the church stands and gets excited and praises but i'm the only one sitting becuase i am concerned about something that no one else notices but i think everyone notices and also i'm just not used to acting that way, especially in front of people. when i do stand up i notice that my armpits start getting a little sweaty but that may be due to the church being hot. even when church is over i just want to get out of there instead of talking with everyone and meeting new people. is this normal anxiety and the church i attend is just too crunk for me or is it just me? i just feel so strange being the only person sitting when everyone else is jumping up and down and praising but at the same time i feel more comfortable sitting in that moment. i think i need to find a smaller church.