Ok, so i used to suffer from anxiety terribly about 2 years ago now, and the past few days its started to creep back in the insomnia and hallucination form. Coincidentally, ive been havign rash thoughts about my realtionship with my boyfriend, and not really felt as if we work togetether, but this then led to two consecutive nightmares tuesday night about him leaving me and i woke up crying and believing it had actually happened because of how vivid they were. But yesterday i agreed to go to a party with my ex which turned out to be a BIG mistake. he wouldnt leave me alone, kept trying to kiss me, and putting his arm around me. Now im filled with regret because i think ive done something wrong by not telling him to stop, and i know that my boyfriend is hurt because i didnt. I have no idea what to do, i feel like going on a self torture path to try and redeem myself, but with this added to my relapse of insomnia and hallucinations its making me feel like life isnt worth it anymore
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