Well the short version of my story is this.... I started having panic attacks 6 yrs ago. My 5 month old baby had to hospitalized for weezing and not breathing so well. Finally after bout 2 months of them i was told what it was and my dr. put me on zoloft which worked.. well after bout a yr i took myself off and desided i was going to live a normal life. i didnt have any signs of attacks for 2-3 yrs. now for the last 2 yrs its hit me like a ton of bricks. everyday it seems i have a new symptom. I was diagnosed with severe anxiety disorder. When i explain to other members in my family what happens to me they all tell me its stress but then tell me they never had it happen to them. i do have 5 kids that drive me insane daily. my husband is hardly ever home ...always at work or playing warcraft ugh! I have no life outside my home and just the thought of leaving my home sends me into full panic mode. My latest problems are shaking. almost like uncontrolable. i go to drink and my head shakes yesterday i noticed now my hands shake. i wake up in full panic mode and usually go to sleep that way. I just got back on zoloft ...only at 100 mg so far. the last time i was on it i was up to 250mg. I most of the time just feel so disconnected and wanna keep to myself. I havent been able to do my "role" around my home as usual ( laundry, cleaning .ect..) Everytime i have a pain or cramp i right away think there is something major wrong with me and im gunna die because of it. Lately its just been getting worse.I used to just have panic attacks a few times a day now it seems like its a never ending attack from morning till night. Is this normal? is there anyone out there as bad as me????
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