Hello all, I am new here and looking for some insight. I have suffered with anxiety and depression for about 10 years. It is not constant however. I suffered the first time for about 3 years solid which included 10 or so panic attacks a day, major depersonalization, vertigo, agoraphobia along with a deep lose of spirit. I eventually began to get better through reading and some self CBT. I felt well enough for a few years and bang, while I was out of town I began the old pattern of "what if and OMG here it is thinking" and Viola I was re acquainted with anxiety and panic. I have once again recovered to a point that I do not have any panic attacks and basically when I begin to feel overwhelmed I can usually calm myself down. The problems is that I know I am still ruled by this disorder because every time there is an event coming up or some must do situation I feel extreme apprehension and depersonalization which in turn make me depressed and feel sorry for myself. Anyway I just cant seem to rejoin life being preoccupied with this. It seems like I am going through life walking on a high wire. I have never taken any medication and as of late be contemplating this. The problem is with all the reading and research I have done on the meds It seems like they have no clue how or if they even work, the side effects are worse than my symtoms. I am just afraid meds would make me worse. Am I being to objective towards medication.
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