Why can I go to the grocery store with no problem, go to the bank, no problem, take my son to school, no problem, go to the gass station, no problem, take the boys to the doctor. But to call and order a pizza, or call to correct an error on a doctor bill, really don't want to do it. My husband was selling the car, the guy came on a day that my husband wasn't home. An hour before the guy was supposed to come to get the car, I started having chest pains, heart palpatations, shortness of breat, etc. I could bearly speak intelligently! Didn't know what to say etc. Any kind of confrontation, I shut down. If I have to return something to a store, it is a big deal, and half the time I don't return it because I can't face the people. Going to large functions where I don't really know people, I have a hard time. I don't understand why I can do some things and not others.
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