Well I am not sure but I think I might of had an anxiety thing earlier because of what my youngest had texted me..What he has texted me HURT me so bad....I have this fear of abandonment going on with him...I have told some of you ...he is here at home tonight & I am not even sure he calls or even refers to this as his house...We have had other quote on quote adopted kids come & go but I can not nail why I am so attached to this one..I lost my mom 3 years ago this month & when he leaves I am scared that something bad will happen to him or worse yet that he won't be back.......My dr says that I have fear of abandonment toward the ones that I am close to who are not flesh..If my kids that are my flesh leave I am not bad because I know for sure they will be back.....Why am I so this way with him ? I used to be somewhat this way with my hubby when we were dating ..We were dating & he would leave to go with his friend & I would literally kick my moms door & throw tantrums because I wanted to go ..I was scared that he wasn't going to come back..At the moment I am trying to think way back into my childhood & try & see why I am this way especially with my 15 year old son..Am I In fairy tale land ? I don't ever want my son to leave ever....when he texted me & said no matter how many days he would be here that when he leaves i would whine & cry that HURT..........................
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