Ever since I can remmeber, I have been an anxious person. Anxious kid, anxious teen and now anxious adult, I had my 1st panic attack 2 years ago, during a very stressful situation and the worst time of my life. Since then, I rarely suffer with panic attacks unless under a great deal of stress. However, I feel a number of situations have sparked my anxiety in a different way-- I'm not having panic attacks, instead I am worrying about everything. I am terrified of death- of myself dying, or my son or my mother, Every bad situation I read/hear/see I relate back to me, if there's a murder on the news, I become wrapped up in thinking 'that could be me', I can't watch tv without there being an ill or dying person and obsessing about it. I can't enjoy my life, it is ridiculous but at 20 I feel my time is running out because it's already going so fast. No one takes me seriously because I'm so young, but this is REAL to me. I don't know what to do because I do not want my little boy sensing my anxiety, but I don't feel able to talk to a doctor, it's so embarassing and the few people I have tried to speak with laugh when I say I'm scared about how fast life is going. Before I know it, I'll be 80 (that's if I don't die before then) and that is my current outlook which I know needs to change. Am I mad?!
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