Iam new to this "home," and I keep writing "stuff" I think someone might like to hear, but I never know where it goes! LOL Tonight I read some of your painful stories, and I can relate. Once, years ago, when I was teaching art but was so sad in my mariage, I would come out of my classes and just sit in my car, praying for just a little joy. Eight months later I gave birth to a little boy. My friends tease me; they say when I was praying for a little joy, God misunderstood and thought I said I wanted a little boy! I got both! Nonetheless, anxiety creeps in when we least expect it. Sometimes, I think, we need to give ourselves "permission" to have that anxiety--not give into it, but recognize it and understand why we have it. Life is not perfect, we all know that, and there are so many things out of our control. I think my own anxiety comes from a bad circumstance that I know I can't change and I don't know how to "fix" it. When it gets too hard, I verbally place it in one hand with my other hand, raise my hand to God, and release it to Him. Believe me, I am not being trite. It doesn't always get rid of it totally, but it helps. I believe certain medications help "take the edge off," but that isn't complete either. I feel for each of you, and just writing this eases some of the big A that I am dealing with right now. My best to all of you.
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