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Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...

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Why is it that once you leave home... its never the same again....

I moved into my grandparents home 10 years ago, ( I'm 25 now). My grandfather who has been my father for the past 10 years has passed away a couple of weeks ago... Makes me think of how precious life is... he so wanted to live.

I spent the last 2 years of my life taking care of my grandfather who died of prostate cancer, I put so many things on hold, and now that I'm back in California, ready to finish what I have to to start a residency program... I am filled with sooo much anxiety. What if I can't do it, what if I fail...

I didn't spend my teenage years partying, or just hanging out. I spent them with my grandparents and studying. I am ashamed to admit it but I'm afraid. there is a whole world out there I haven't been exposed to ( YES, I am soo embarrassed, being 25 and still as naive as one can be.... ) I can be outspoken but most of the time I am shy, which is really ironic becuase I'm happiest when I'm around people.

anyway, I feel really stupid writing all this down, but maybe writing this and having people (that exist at this very moment I do) tell me I'm not alone, its okay.. would make me feel a whole lot better...

Thank you..
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am so sorry for your lost one. Just know that life can carry on. Take this as a sign to how precious life is. Go out and live life with regrets.
Marigolds
Marigolds
I am sorry so for your loss...you must be feeling very sad and missing him...but remember...nothing is wasted. you spent that time helping you grandfather and you learned many invaluable lessons that you otherwise would not have. Patience, compassion, how to help someone in pain and so much more.
You say you are 25 and naive but what you have learned will help you through life. you are still so very young and have plenty of time to learn about the world out there..and now is that time to do it. You can do it...you will not fail...
Saying a prayer for you.
JillyT
JillyT
It's never easy making changes that involve a risk, leaving home and being on your own is one of the big ones, even when you are 25 or when it is the second time you leave.

One of the reasons you may be feeling anxious about this new adventure is because you know that your grandfather isn't there to catch you if you fall. But you have already shown how strong you are by taking care of him when he needed you, not everyone can step up to something like that- even tho you may not have even thought about it twice before doing it. Don't be embarassed about your age, there really are a lot of people who get a late start at things in life. Finally, don't ever feel stupid about writing about how you feel, especially here because a lot of us know how you feel and you are truly not alone. We are always here for you to "talk" to. I hope this helps and I am very sorry for your loss - I felt the same way when my mom died and I was 36! So if there is anything I can do for you, please let me know...hugs jilly
jack46
jack46
To lose a father is sad and very difficult. I lost my father to prostate cancer 5 years ago. He was 84. I think you have to say to yourself that you are going to persist and move ahead toward your career of choice even if it takes some time. Look forward to the rewards.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I lost my grandfather over 5 years ago and I still feel the lose today, the only difference is that now when I remember him I only remember the good times we had and It makes me smile. A few months ago I lost my grandmother- I can smile knowing they're together again. Your feelings are all OK, we all deal with loss, and the emotions that come with it, and as far as getting back into your life don't be afraid, its always been there waiting for you, just take it one step at a time, and I'm sure you'll be fine. Your not naive the unknown can be scary again you have to take it one step at a time. Good luck and all my best. Chase.
chelle37
chelle37
I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. You're grandfather I'm sure was very fortunate to have a granddaughter so loving to put everything on hold to help care for him. You're definitely not alone, post here all you want. I think your feelings are very normal, at least many of us here share them. Feel free to message me if you'd like to talk. Hugs to you, Chelle
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