I am a husband and father of 3. I work as a Paramedic and have for 18 years. My children are 10, 5, and 1. I am 40 years old this year. Over the last couple of years I have completely lost all patients with my family. i am still able to do my job and do it well but hate it. I kiss peoples butt for 24 hours get no sleep and when I come home I take out all my anger on my family. I miss them so much and when I get home I love to see them but then thier actions start to wear on me and I start to yell and cuse at them. I know this is wrong but cant help my self. I am fine then the littles thing sets me off. My 5 yr old was playing with his toys the other day and I asked him several times to please be quite he could not do that so I snapped and took his toy away and broke it in half. I know this isnt the right thing to do but once it starts I cant stop it. I yell and cuse and then it all goes down hill. I love my kids, my wife and my family more than any thing but I am driving them away. I dont know what is happening so any help or advice would be great.
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