This is the first time i have ever said this but i finally see my anger problem. I have had so many troubles and have felt so many emotions that i havent really looked at the deeper sides of things. And its only recently, since i have been home from being away for a while, to see from the start all over again what went wrong. You see when it went wrong before i was too young to see and understand so i didnt know what started things or how things were with people. But since i have come back after a long break i realise how things started before as all of the emotions are coming back again and the anger, and now i am old enough to see what they are and pin point each individual one. My head is one of those things that are so messed up with awful and unhappy thoughts that i constantly get sad and angry. But more recently i get so angry and with the anger comes the sadness afterwards. I get angry over everything! 0ver the bus times, over my mothers cooking, over someone else being happy, over my parents feelings with my sister, over the wrong tea bag being put in my tea. And i cant help but kick off or let it get to me which gets to everyone else around or builds up and then i really explode later on with someone else who hasnt really done anything. But i also find myself looking back at the argument i have just had and thinking that they were in the wrong and that they are bad...and then start feeling really bad myself and i always say sorry, but always do it again and again and hurt so many people, mainly my folks, along the way. I know i have rambled on and man do i have so much more to say but i just felt like this moment in time was the right time to ask for some help....some advice on what to do and how to control it without harming someone. Hope you can help xxx
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