Hi, Do any of you here feel like a real version of the incredible hulk? I know I do the only difference between me and the infamous comic book character are that I am a woman. I don't bust out of my clothes when I get angry. I don't turn green. I'm not part of some wack science experiment although there have been times that I have felt that way. And unlike the comic book character my story is real. I don't just get angry I also suffer from rage. I was also traumatized, and abused and I have Bipolar and PTSD. My anger and rage has gone off the chart at times very similar to the incredible hulk. When the fits of rage and anger are over I feel so tired,weak and bad. I don't like the monster that I become when I am enraged. feeling such a deep sense of sorrow, hopelessness and guilt afterwards drives me into a deep depression and agoraphobia and social isolation state. It has gotten so bad at times that I have been afraid of myself and the rage within. I have even attempted suicide in the past. Is there anyone listening that knows how that feels?
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