I broke up with my "boyfriend" a couple of weeks ago. The final straw was that he wouldn't let me see him on Valentines Day. He has an injury and I asked him if I could come over to his house and see him and he said no. He lives with his family and says that it's crowded over at his house. I thought he would cut me some slack since it was Valentine's Day but no go. I wrote him an e-mail saying that seeing him once a month wasn't enough for me. We live in the same town and volunteer in the same community theater group and the only time I get to see him is when were both at the theater. He gave me the old "we should just be friends speech." That's not what pissed me off. What pissed me off is that he said I invited my self over to his house. Acutally I asked if he was going to walk his dogs later on that evening and could I meet him somewhere? If I would "invited" myself to his house I would of showed up on his doorstep without warning. I wrote him an e-mail and appoligize for my behavior and I told him I hope we could be friends. He writes back and says that he thinks he will be able to talk to me. What a pussy wimp! I want to tell him that I asked if I could come over and ask him what does he mean that he thinks he can talk to me? It's been bothering me all of this time. I haven't said anything to him because a)I really want to be friends with him. He's a funny guy. and b)he's been in the theater group for a long time and is friends with everyone and I'm concerned that if I go off on him then he will tell the other people in the group that I have a bad attitude and not to cast me in no more productions. I LOVE performing on stage. It's the only good thing I have going on in my life. If I lose this then why continue to live? In a couple of weeks I'm auditioning for a play and the woman who is directing the play I know for a fact that they are good friends and I really want a part. It's one thing to lose a boyfriend but to lose something I enjoy doing? Do I speak up and clear the air or in the words of Kathy Griffin do I suck it and say nothing so I can continue to be in the group?
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