Today was a very bad day for me i got into it today with my younger sister about harrasing my grandmother for using her car to get my ass off my shoulders and get a job of which i did get a job interview for 2morrow the only good thing to happen today but before i left i broke one of my sisters dvds because of her tough guy attitude towards me and i knew it was wrong and i did want to do it but she just sparked my temper because of all the stress im under about not having a job lossing my aprtment and breaking up with my girl friend of whom im still in contact with as we try to fix are relationship but thats another story all together and moving back in to my mothers house were im surly not welcome but i have no place to go so i put up with a lot of disrespect and hatred towards me so before i left my sister threating to hurt my dog of whcih i took serious offense and began to retaliate for the attack earlier and the threat i had grabbed her and forced her down in a poor attempt to show superiority as the older child and asshole that i am so i took my dog and left on the job hunt and i returned to find my room in shambles a huge hole in my beds head stand my $700 Flat screen TV on the floor with a dent in the speakers and baseball bat marks on my door but because i was so happy that i had my job interview it didnt effect even after i found her note saying this is basically pay back i went to apologize and tell her that i would replace the $40 dvd with my first pay check if i get the job but even after i told her she had her tough guy attitude on so i went to my room to give her time to breath but while i was up there i turned on my TV to find that it had been distroyed by the attack with the baseball bad and the wave of rage had fallen upon me but i stayed cailm and called my mother to see what will be done about this and after a couple of hang ups and small talk i told her that she had to buy me a new TV she laffed at me and said i sholdnt have broken her $40 dvd basically condoning the destruction of the $700 flat screen TV i said i was going to call the police on my sister (by the way last year she put me in jail for christmas and new years my mother and sister both) and she said if i did i would have a place to sleep tonite so I lost it taking it upon my self the be the father figure i was before i left and disciplining my sister as if she were my child but with a siblings twist of disrespect i know what i did was wrong but thats why its called relaps i didnt me to get so angry but i had no option but to either 1 take it up the ass or 2 take it into my own hands and im not the kind of person that lets people take adventage of him maybe someone can help me and explain what they would have done so i can have another option next time, i just had to get it off my chest because i went back and explained how imprtant that TV was to me because living in my mothers house im not allowed to be out of my room while shes home because we just fight way to much and i dont need another stent in prison for her childish antics i feel sorry about what i did but its over now and i cant take it back but it just feels so bad to relaps something i have been struggling with my whole life..........
Posted on 01/02/08, 04:01 pm
Posted on 01/02/08, 04:01 pm
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