My husband and I went to my youngest sons wedding on the 12th of Sept. and my oldest son and my husband fought all night long. I thought they were ok with each other, but I guess not. They both ended up getting kicked out. Now what I am feeling is that I am feeling rage towards my husbands son, who lives with us presently. He doesn't even have to do anything and I am talking aloud to myself and calling him names and cursing at him. Well, yesterday he didn't go to work and then before school he comes up to me and asked for a thermometer. I was thinking to myself; what a faker, what a little sissy that he wants to take his temp. and pretend to be sick. I am not stupid and he cannot pull crap over on me. Then he came downstairs and asked me what to do with a bag of garbage. "Duh" go set it on the kitchen table. How stupid is he?? It goes to the garage..... He can't do 1 single thing without calling or asking for directions. Anyway, I think I am taking it out on him now that I know my husband and MY son will probably never get along. I just feel "Why should I try if my husband won't try?" I am angry because I have to live with his son and I never wanted that from the beginning, but now it bothers me worse than ever, since this deal at the wedding. I know what everyone will say here and please be nice. You are going to tell me that I knew my husband had kids and all that before I married him and "yes, I did." You will say that I shouldn't have married him, but I thought I could deal with it, but I am failing. I am hoping the son will move out as soon as he finishes school, which he is in his last year. He probably won't like me, but I feel like he just moved in to mess things up between me and his dad to begin with. Oh, and so he could run around and not be disciplined at all and use, use, use and never give anything in return. It is so bad that when his dad made him a plate the other night and the son said "thank you" THAT made me think of him as a little faker and suck up sissy too. How many kids, especially males, are going to say thank you all the time nowadays? His trying to be polite irritates me. I know I am the one with the problem here, but I can't seem straighten it out.
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