I'm a 30 yr old woman generally content with life, but there are so many things that drive me to the point of blind fury that most other people would take it their stride. Today for example I had my broadband cut off because the ISP screwed up my billing, however unless I want to wait for them to rectify it which will take a week, I wound up paying it and hoping to get a refund (like that will ever happen). I took my laundry into the laundrette because my washing machine is broken down and despite paying a small fortune for a service wash I got back to find the laundrette locked up and all my now dry washing scrunched into a heap. So after spending nearly 50 ($100!) to get stuff to wear to work tomorrow and clean sheets to sleep on tonight I now can't get it until Saturday (when it will cost me ANOTHER 16 to collect it) and I'll have to spend hous ironing when I never iron because she couldn't be bothered to fold my stuff out of the drier even though I paid for it. I wanted to smash in the windows of the shop and I know that I will wind up shouting and screaming at the woman when I go to collect it. How stupid is that?, but I'm still furious. I want to hurt someone. Probably myself. I'm sure this kind of rage is not healthy and I know I need to sort something out, but how? How do I stop feeling like every day is the windsheid and I'm the bug? Just for one day I want to be the wind sheild!....HELP!
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