I'm losing it. I'm a fast-paced, intelligent man living in a slug-paced wasteland of mediocrity. I have to get out of here! I'm in Bush Alaska and have to return to the city back to reality. I am not getting job offers that I want. I'm not in as much shape as I would like. My boss quit so I'm doing her job plus mine. I haven't been happy in months and I'm losing all my friends because I'm acting like a psycho and am overly sensitive. I can't stop complaining. I feel like screaming every day. I've turned to drugs and alcohol and have not been exercising...(I'm an exercise physiologist). I'm very smart, actually nice, but I can't seem to return to myself. I'd like to take time to return to happiness, but the irritating and occupying stimulation just doesn't stop! It never ends! I don't how long I can take this before I flip and go psycho on someone. My obstacles: environmental chaos, huge ego, and surrounded by mediocrity (I'm crazy impatient and my head hurts everyday).
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