I am so angry that despite "doing" all the right things like taking my meds, going to therapy, talking about "feelings" etc, I am so angry about my G.D. life that I just want to start throwing all of my belongings aroung the house and scream at the top of my lungs and break every dish, scream, cut up the furniture, break, destroy and just destroy everything and then set the trailer on fire. My mind knows that it is stupid because it's my stuff and I wouldn't have a place to live and stuff, but I can feel the angry just building up. In the past I ending up screaming, crying and cutting myself. the animals get all freaked out and shit. What I really want to do is go and destroy my ex's place and make him pay for the pain he's cause me...he's never said that he's sorry or anything and I'm getting past that i'm to blame to he's a prick, but I want him to hurt....I don't know what to do.....I want mayhem...pain....destruction.....what to do, what to do?
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