I am so angry that despite "doing" all the right things like taking my meds, going to therapy, talking about "feelings" etc, I am so angry about my G.D. life that I just want to start throwing all of my belongings aroung the house and scream at the top of my lungs and break every dish, scream, cut up the furniture, break, destroy and just destroy everything and then set the trailer on fire. My mind knows that it is stupid because it's my stuff and I wouldn't have a place to live and stuff, but I can feel the angry just building up. In the past I ending up screaming, crying and cutting myself. the animals get all freaked out and shit. What I really want to do is go and destroy my ex's place and make him pay for the pain he's cause me...he's never said that he's sorry or anything and I'm getting past that i'm to blame to he's a prick, but I want him to hurt....I don't know what to do.....I want mayhem...pain....destruction.....what to do, what to do?
Posts You May Be Interested In
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...