when iget angry it gets reeally bad, spasms spasms spasms, they can go every where, my whole body feels tingly and then.. the spasms come, my musicles just start tensing and untensing on there own accord.... i can control it mostly so peoeple dont notice.. usually my finger just moves from left to right, but sometimes, (like 2day) i am so close to loosing my temper and breaking anything around me, and attacking any1 that my body just gets into spasm mode... iget headaches too, for a long time afterwards, im a young guy, trying to live a good life, at university and everything, know alot of people, very social, but theres nobody to open up to, beacause i dont trust them enough.even my best friends dont know.. i cant tell them, i just cant, my girlfriend doesnt even know.. my dad was abusive to my mum, he stpped her, left a whole in her chest, she still has it to this day.. im scared ill do the same to her one day bcoz of my bad temper... ive never lost it with her but she doesnt understand me... itry to communicate my feelings to her through talking, but she just takes me for a pushover becuase of it, she can be very manipulative, and has hurt me alot , weve been going out for almost a year. i mean i try to be straightforward with people, but they just take it the worng way... and i dont want them to know too much about me, because i find it really hard trust people.... what do i do???
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