My husband use to look at porn, cheat, lie, etc.... The thing is, he has changed. He is the most wonderful person now. The problem is, I am still mad about what he did. I can't control my anger towards him. I lash out at him and at other women who he use to look at frequently. I yell bitch out the window at pretty girls. I accuse him of looking at them and wanting them instead of me. He use to say that he wasn't sure if i was what he wanted. Now he is sure and we are married. But i still can't shake off the feeling that he might still be that same asshole but only hides it better. I don't know what to do.
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