My mom abused me when I was little and now I abuse my boyfriends. Well really just one guy and were not together right now. After dating for nearly 2 years we finally called it off realizing things aka me wasnt getting better soon. I have very large anger issues, and almost all of those issues end up coming out in the heat of battle. We broke up nearly a year ago but about a month ago we really started talking again- even seeing one another. Ive spent countless hours analyzing and reanalyzing what went wrong why I acted the way I did, etc. Ive really tried to improve on those issues, even going to therapy and havent really had any major anger problems since we broke up but then again Im generally a happy, easy going person until I feel like I can act out. I dont know whats going to happen between us - I know hes pretty afraid of me, even if he does care about me. Ive tried, and successfully dated other guys since the break- up one for a couple of months- but my ex was more than my bf he was my best friend. I dont want to goof this up with him, but at the same time know that we just have to take this slowly I want him to be able to call the shots here. At the same time too I want to support him, and let him know I care- I would say to me just to tell him, but I dont want to come across in the wrong lightbasically I dont know what to do for him, or if there is anything I can do, in addition I dont know if I will just end up hurting him again --- I definitely dont want to do that as painful as it would be I would rather stay away from him forever than hurt him like I did again.
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