I'll try to keep this fairly short. I'm new to this and not good at describing my problem. For starters I dont really get angry with other people, only with my husband, and its really over the smallest stupidest things you could think of that I get angry with him over (i.e. going fishing or going out for a ride on his motorcycle.) This has pretty much started during the past 8-10 months. I feel horrible for what I am doing to him and to our marriage. I have pushed him to his limits and he is fed up with me lashing out at him over nothing. And to be honest I'm fed up with it. I hate what its doing to our marriage and I dont want to lose him. I don't know how to change it, I don't know how to surpress it or keep it to myself and no matter how I try I end up exploding at him. I cant afford professional help and I really dont know where to turn. I did really good for about 2 1/2 weeks and then suddenly I went off at him yesterday for no reason other than he called to ask how my day at was going. I guess I should include that we live apart right now, I live in Texas and he in England and we're going through the immigration process. We've been together for 3 years and married a year and half of it. I just gotta get this under control before I end up driving us apart. I do love him, and I know he loves me, and I don't know what to do, I just don't want to lose him.
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