Hi I just joined the community today. I hope its some sort of help. My anger starts back from a childhood. My father was very abusive and my mother did nothing about it. I would go to school with my face busted up. The school would call CPS. All the time they were over the house and my father would act like he was the best parent in the world. I was always different. i dressed different than everyone else. I listened to different music than everyone else. My family did not know how to be parents and put me away in psyc wards or group homes. The doctors at the psyc ward would tell me at times i didnt belong there. I would cry all the time. I always felt trapped in a cage not able to escape the insanity. I now live with my girlfriend in the NYC area. I notice myself pissed off every single day. The littlest things trigger it. Every time i would visit manhattan before i lived here i have had 3 cases where i have been attacked. I fought back all of them. I am surprised i never gotten killed. i just try and stay away from thoes areas now. i notice myself getting angry in huge crowds. I start screaming and pushing people. Alot of the time i start to feel rage. Little things build up over time and then i just feel like i go crazy and start destroying things.... has anyone been through similar things like this? I feel like I hate the world.
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