Hi everyone please let me thank you in advance for listening. I had an absolutely terrible day today. It started with my visit to what was supposed to be with a new PCM to get some paperwork to see a neurosurgeon for a second opinion. I had never seen this doctor before and to say the least, she was just a total well lets just be respectful and sayan idiot. One of her first comments to be (without knowing my medical history or anything about me was (and yes, I quote!) You know your aneurysm is no big deal right? I just sat there!! After just staring at her a few seconds and realizing that it really wasnt worth wasting my time talking with her, I excused myself and rescheduled my appointment with another physician. I left there and called my best friend in Europe (thank goodness for Vontage!!) at first I was so mad and she shared in the anger!! But by the end of the conversation we were laughing at the whole ordeal it served as a great stress relief!! When my husband (he is also a doctor) got home I told him my experience with the new PCM and how upset I was at what had happened and I really wanted him to be equally as upset as my friend, if not more!! I know I would have been if it had happened to him!! But to him it was okay. I didnt understand??!!!! Of course I broke down in tears confided in him that I was disappointed and well lets just say it went down hill from there. Am I being unreasonable?? Unfair? So many times I feel like I have to hide what I am feeling in regards to this aneurysm. I find myself not talking about it with him for days, yet talking either on this board or to my friends everyday about it. When in reality its him I need constantly. I have mentioned the possibility of getting on either depression/anxiety medication or something to help me sleep (I get about five hours a night) but he assures me I dont need anything. I know that he is scared too, but I am just so frustrated right now..did any of you experience the same with your spouses??? Please know that I hate to come across as complaining he is a dear man and wonderful father that I love dearly!!!! Thank you for your help with this.
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