My husband and I care for his mother, who is in the early to mid stages of AD. She brings a lot of light and joy into our lives, but life isn't without its frustrations. Rationally, I don't want her thanks for the things I do for her -- I do them because I love her and because I love my husband. But tonight I heard her telling my husband that I don't leave her medication out for her anymore -- when I DO leave it out and remind her to take it every single night (unless I have asked my husband to do it, which happens occasionally). I know it's not her fault and that she forgets, but her comment just hit me hard and made all these feeling of resentment well up in my heart. I feel I spend so much time looking after her and worrying about her -- it really hurt to hear that, in her mind, I'm not faithful in taking care of her. I feel like I'm a failure and will never be able to do enough.
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