I havent slept all night, I cant stop crying and i just want to fade away. I am trying my best to do the positive thing but it is winning. I give up, I am tired of trying to convince myself all night last night and yesterday that everything is ok. I have tried my positive tool box all night but no matter which tool I pull out it seems to either dissapear or break in half. I know I have to fight this depression but I am worn out and just want to lay down and try to sleep. My eyes hurt from the tears and I just cant think. I want to be here for all of you but I cant help you when I cant help myself today. I hope this will end by this evening.
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