OK, so, I started a new job, usually I work days but tonight I had to work the night shift.. husband home with daughter and my son. He has told me he was quitting drinking and hadn't drank since last wednesday. However, I get home, he's in bed and I immediatly smell the booze. I ask.. he denies.. my older son tells me that he knew he was drinking by the way he was verbally being mean to him ( he is my disabled 24 yr old from previous marriage) and that he was slurring his words. He also had some woman in my house. she has a son that my daughter knows????!!!!! WTF! I am so mad at him for A) lying, drinking..B) having some woman I don't even know in my house when I am at work!!! C) being a damn asshole.. I swear, I have only been sober almost 2 weeks and he is definately not working to try and save this marriage as he had swore we were more important than the bottle.. God, I want this to end! I feel trapped. I hate him tonight.. this sucks. I should kick him out.. just can't afford to make it on my own but my sobriety and family mean more to me than he does.. jerk!
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