I can relate to this macca123, I am on my 8th day sober. For the past 7 days, i have been asking myself, "What would it hurt?" I know it won't be 4, like you know. One thing that is helping me is something a new friend at aa told me to do. He told me to write down all the reasons I chose to sober up, and keep that paper with me all the time. He told me on the opposite side of the paper to write down all the things i wished I didn't do when I was drinking. I thought it sounded stupid, but I did it. And it seens to be working. Everytime I think why not, I look at both sides of this paper. And if that don't work, I call someone. But most of the time looking at my life on paper helps me realize not to take that 4 pack or even that 1.
Thanks

I have a lot of thoughts about booze, not always of drinking . but the stuff in general, when i asked my sponsor why she said "cos your an lcoholic" no other explaination need is there, so now i go and read my aa lit insteadKeep the faith guys
Stepie

Congratulations on your 7 days, and especially for not letting the disease win today. It is a disease, it tells us we don't have a disease. It's patient, willing to wait for the one weak moment and move right into your thinking.
Have you gone to AA? Drunks helping drunks is (in my opinion) the best way to go. Who else would understand better than someone who has been there. That way times like today you could call someone and go to a meeting.

First, well done, its not easy and the first week to a month can be hell.

Oh the mind games how they play hell, me I am nearly 2 years sober and I still wonder why I can't have just the odd one, I of course know the answer, and its the answer that stops me going there. They say you have to run the film forward sometimes, just imaging having JUST 4 beers, run the film that far and then keep running the film because you know how it will go.

We are I am afraid alcoholics, we don't do 4 beers, maybe once we did, but now no longer.

And believe me the rewards of not drinking far out wiegh the reward of drinking (if there are any)

Stick with it, soon you will start counting months not days and weeks, next it will be years, then you will wonder why you ever bothered

Good luck

I am reading Turnabout by Jean Kirkpatrick right now. I'm finding that always being into a book about alcoholism is helping me. I also think meatman's suggestion is an awesome one.

Woooohooooo!!!!! you made it today....thru some very dangerous thoughts......I hate it when that happens...(i had one today,too) but today I have a choice and all we can do is worry about today....And we did IT.....
I don't know if you have given AA and the 12 steps a try, but it may be something you might want to look into...i know for me...it had given me some much needed guidance and lottsa support.....and without the connection to these people that understand what I am going thru....I probably would have given in to my desire...and today i would have my 4 pack, tomorrow would have been a 12 pack and by friday I would have a delivery truck full and another on the way....
sooooo....yep.....I think you are right on target....It is our illness!!!!Hugggggs

good job today. It's not easy to all of a sudden not get loaded when that is what you're used to everyday... Trust me I friggin know. Hopefully you're getting to a meeting everyday. Have a sponsor and some phone numbers you can use when those thoughts start to occur... Keep it up man:)

You're becoming aware how your main problem centers in your mind. It says," just one, just one more, it won't hurt, nobody will know, etc." This type of thinking when fully established will not go away. After a time, we can not differentiate the true from the false, and succomb to desire again and again. The only hope we have is to have a spiritual(not religious)experience. The defination of a spiritual experience is the casting out of old ideas and belief's. We think we know what's best for ourselves. WE DON'T! Just look at our track record. We have to get into working the steps and hopefully we'll have one or many of these "spiritual experiences." If we don't then history is doomed to repeat itself and we relapse. At least you're aware that you have faulty thinking you. I warn you however, if you and your thinking don't change then your sobriety date will change. Work the steps. That way you're in the solution.

thanks eveyone
an no i havent been to a meeting yet ktharp423.cant seem to get myself there im prolly just bein weak but ill make myself go soon,an thats a gd idea meatman im witin it down rite now,
thankz again